faux pas
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Today, April 4, 2009 concludes our 1 week incommunicado status, your proposition, which left me no choice but to concur and cooperate, albeit the heartbreaking heaviness of agreeing to such emotionally disturbing proposal. Since we have to be even with such decision, and since I know you decide things better than I do, considering that you are “emotionally mature” than me with all the relationship/age/ordeals you’ve been through, I gave in to such proposal as a mean of fixing us both. It started Saturday, and I was with my closest friends, I can’t bring up the topic because I can’t afford to bawl my eyes out infront of them, in an open space, filled with staring eyes. I have to muster (again) the subtle waves of emotions that probably will reach ashore once I hit the sack that night. But I was too drunk to think about it and have to drag myself to bed just to get a decent sleep.
Everytime I feel the urge of grabbing my phone and calling you, and telling you you’re a complete asshole for deciding such thing and torturing me with such silence…I would end up doodling my thoughts. (more…)
