ten-ty-four

twenty-four years of submitting myself to an overpowering force called intellectually stimulating “issues” (LOL 24?! So your brain is emotionally mature while you’re asking your mom to change your diapers huh?!…but of course…heehee! LOL) okay, it’s quite normal to have my train of thoughts digress in flaky fashion dot dot dot is normal.

Today, I won’t ramble about my issues and stuff like - finding myself in fulfilling and emotionally-satisfying relationship…but still, those morbid insecurities about people taking me seriously is an issue called crap. So instead of digging that issue, what I will do is, I’m gonna screw myself with beautiful thoughts about dreams and WANTS (I cringe to the effin effin X everytime I say dreams…sound so cheesy. I don’t normally succumb to cheesy stuff you know. I’d rather stash those love-letter-filled-i-love-yous’.LOL! DreamS sound like love, love sick, love forlorn, lovestruck, love love whatever it is…I don’t want anything to do with it! hahaha!

So, I armed up with these surreal thoughts, though not all of them really, I feel heavily inebriated everytime I think of it and, I am desperately inebriated  everytime they pop out of my thoughts…LOL!

They are technically not fashioned in specific order. They are random thoughts boilin’ inside my brain everytime it wants to shrink to accomodate enough alcohol that consumed me evrynight. So, #1 can go last or I love it to be coupled with #2. Though having #2 to come off first is awesome!…not that surreal, right?! LOL!

1. I want to have a pet elephant. I will name him/her/it Lolita. I don’t care if he’s a he or it’s an it. I will call my pet elephant Lolita, and so be it! LOL
2. My next lover will be a loyal and naughty geek-turned-supermodelstraighthunk. (nevermind naughty, as long as he’s loyal.) His brain will be my breakfast lunch dinner and midnight snack.  Of course, he should have the wisdom of all my favorite people in the world, one of them is Adolf Hitler, and so be it! LOL
3. I’m going to enroll myself in a foreign art school before I die, of course next lover and I are classmates, I love it! LOL. We will share notes and everything there is to share, and so be it! LOL
4. I will travel alone. I will miss next lover though, but I have to travel the world alone, and I will live in a 3 different countries where everything and everyone are complete strangers. I will learn their art, culture, tradition, music, language, food, and everything there is to be learned, and so be it! LOL (Africa is not included in my list and so is Iraq and the likes.LOL)
5. I want to be a nursery teacher that focus on art as well as foreign language. Only geekoids can enroll. HAHA! You see, smart kids are the most adorable creature on earth next to french bulldogs, Lolita the elephant and dark chocolates (and of course lover) heehee! I will be a teacher, a very fashyown one, and so be it! LOL
6. I want Philippines to be effin rich and we will have those 1st world countries for slaves and prostitutes…LOL kidding! I just want world peace, and so be it!
7. I want to eat chocolates chocolates chocolates without asking why my tonsils suddenly popped-out…grrr! LOL

8.  A cheesy note peppered with lots of I love youS with a post script telling me, “Your cheesy birthday surprise comes in a box inside your nifty mailbox..“ baaah!!! LOLMAO
   

9. I need a cure for Cancer especially Leukemia so that everyone will be happy plus an anti-misery vaccine, free for all!!!
10. This death list thing is now tiring. I have plenty of them. They will happen anyway, so there’s no need for me to brag about it, someday, a random post in the blogsphere will be slapped before your very eyes and it will discuss things like elephant Lolita, art, traveling, lover, lover and next lover. LOL Things will fall into place anyway, and so be it!
    

        Now, I could barely extract wit (not that I’m trying) out of alcohol hazes and ingeniously infuse pathetic night out with memories worth remembering… I have been helplessly & heavily inebriated these past few days before celebrating my birthday which will be moved next week (lots of my so-called friends forgot it so I’m giving them another chance in hell okay! LOL) and because I am desperately drUnkin’ my a**out for some odd reason…I don’t wanna go yakking on sordid details anymore. Maybe I need those downers to summon memories that are trying to run away from me. I think I hid them somewhere. A ghost in his bipolar state is trying to turn my dismal world up-side-down again. I need to sleep.

Goodmorning Sunshine!!!