happy kissmas!!!

My compulsory christmas post.  

 argh! LOL

Little christmas tree…no one to buy you…give yourself to me…

of donuts and milk…

for those who are legally blind click the image for a better view LOL

I need Adobe Photoshop. I’m so bad in editing pictures. I basically suck. whatever. For the love of art and poetry…I’ve been compelled to write a blog post. If I’m not who I am right now LOL ~whatever that is~ …i could be sulking inside my artsy fartsy workroom…painting, sketching, drawing, eating, sleeping, IMming, painting again, then sleeping again or daydreaming again and again… and that is everything to me. I don’t care if I dont have a social life. I don’t care if I don’t have money or whatever normal people have…as long as I have my own realm of beauty and madness…I’ll be more than happy…NOT! haha

Life is moving me fast. So fast, i could hardly catch up.Its pretty funny..life could bring us from heaven to hell in a heartbeat. Sometimes, its so tiring to catch up with it’s animosity, that you just wanna stop for a while and convince yourself that you are perfectly fine with all its antagonism, hostility & whateverf*ckcomes with it…its part of the race and moving along with it is perfectly normal.several days from now and 2008 will be wrappin’ up. This is not a year end report/ lousy blogpost…i just feel like writing something normal. hahaha because everything around me is not getting close to being normal anymore. hahaha.
This year,  is an interlude of good and bad things, of mess and pretext, of opportunities and thrown chances, i dont know how far its digging me, i just want to keep it coming and let it go and move on. My heart aches for those people leaving my life without even saying goodbye, for those who gave me a reason to linger with pain in the most extraordinary way, for people not coming back even just to bid farewell. I pity those people and I pity myself. wut eber! LOL.

I just want this year to end. I want my life to start this 20-OH!-9…haha!

 I’m secretly falling apart. If someone would crash and squeeze me for some odd reason…I would probably be blown in limerent fragments. I would feign an emotion that could blow my thoughts into shitty pieces and convince myself that I’m normal. My thoughts are fragmented.  Yes. 20-oh!-8 is Oh!some! I could barely spell that word. LOL

Random: An unexpected flare light up my 2008 grey skies. It was so bright that if I hold it…Its either, I love burning myslef or I hate letting that burst of light go. But that flare will soon be just like any flare. It could light up or blind you if you wanted to…That same flare and same nightmare who channels itself into the very depths of my existence will continue to illuminate for the rest of my so-called life.

I’d like to profess my longing for that which is inexistent:
For the endless mystery,
all the questions waiting to be asked
and that are yet left to be unanswered –
The questions that have countless times been asked
and were lost within thousands of echoes.

I plead my gods that you never come back. You are a ghost lurking in my dreams. I never asked you in my life like I never asked to be born.  I never asked for anything…even that so-called apology…like what for. I dismissed every thought of you. I  a m  y o u.

“When I had nothing to lose…I had everything.
When I stopped being who I am…I found myself.”

-11 minutes

Sometimes, the human mind can be so powerful that it can go through the best and worst of things. The mind can think of infinite possibilities…can overanalyze lucid thoughts and it can mess up your life the way you want it to be…you choose. Life is a matter of choice anyway. 

 Life is strange. I love iiiiit!!!

and I love these. I woke up and isa nlng ang natira na chocolate…grrr!

and look at that L there!!! thats L for ~Love~ …?

 thats L for “Lami”

aaah…sarap! ahahaha!!! adik! :)